Real Talk;

Dont you hate it when someone you love or at least someone you knew dies and then u think all the pain is gone for a minute..but somethin just happens again and hits you rite in your face..because it happened so fast..and that everything changes and people just wont stop sayin "oh dont worry about it honey their in a better place now"and I just think to myself "there is no where near a better place beause a better place is at home with me and love ones."...And i know it still hurts after u just realized that u lost someone..close to you because the person that passed could have taught you things or always been there for you no matta what [Marvin && Rashard]. And that their gone we feel like there's no hope anymore.. But what sucks the most is when they die at a young age[Patricia, Rashard, B.J && Nathan] or when they die right in front of you and you cant do anything..[Marvin] your just in shock cuz u cant believe what just happened..

Since I found out that everyone i cared about lost someone close to them [Jordan, Yani, Isata, Ariel] It really make me think about life because anything can happen at any second..so now on im a tell everybody " Just live life to the fullest and never give up no matta what" 

Because that's what my daddy wanted me to do, 

that's what Rashard, B.J , and Chris wanted you to do Jordan,
that's what Your daddy wanted you to do Yani, 
that's what Patricia wanted you to do Isata, 
that's what your daddy wanted you to do Ariel, 

and that's what I want you to do...Because they love you guys so much and they wouldnt want to be all depressed..they would want you guys to be all happy like when they were alive...[Smilling and stuff]..But trusted me I not the one to talk because i used to say" i wish i was the one who died not him" or i said" it should have been me and not him"..but someone wise told me that God put on this earth for a reason and the reason was to live and die..and not matter wat happen that person will always be with u in spirit and that was there time to go..

But im goin to try to move on slowly if u guy do it with me because i cant do it alone i need help..because this will be the second birthday without my dad [Marvin] bein around and the first birthday without my brother bein arond[Nathan]..so if yall can do this for me it would mean alot to me..but back to the point..

Since ive met Jordan and Yani ive found out so much about them..because they so interesting..them seem so real and down to earth..and not afraid to speak their minds..and dont get me wrong but Yani seems like an older sister to me and Jordan seems to be my bestfriend and my babi at the same time[ but babi comes first]..and If these were ever going through anthing they can always talk me about it because im here for them 24/7 and if they needed to talk ill listen because i care..=]..&& I luv these guys so much..like words cant explain it..

Also Mary and Ariel are like sisters to me and they should kno that if they were gointhrough anything i would be there for them 24/7 too and that i would listen to them too because i care about them so much.. i like always say..if they cry i cry, if they hurt i hurt, if they go crazie shit i go crazie.. they are like blood to me..DNA is the only thing that is keeping us from not bein related..i love so much..

I just want yall to kno that im here for yall [Yani ,Jordan, Isata, Ariel, Mary everybody] i luv yall like we were family..

R.I.P MARVIN
R.I.P RASHARD, B.J.,&& Chris
R.I.P YANI'S DAD[POPs]
R.I.P ARIEL'S DAD[POPs]
R.I.P PATRICIA [ISATA'S MOM]
R.I.P ANDREA'S DAD Mitch
R.I.P. QUI-QUI
This one is for Yani...R.I.P Cherrese..may god be with her and her family..
♥Rest In Peace♥